got my haircut yesterday.the first thing adrea said when she saw it was that i look like sec 1.how nice.cin say its ok.if my fringe grows longer its gonna be alright.yeap.its too short.just like someone else's.ok i shant keep talking rot.been playing badminton nowadays.im improving so u all dun always say me ok.its not my fault im not inclined in sports right.i think im quite lousy.i mean what m i really good at?doing stupid things?ok yea thats about it.ok so thats better den nothing.tomorrow will be a better day.dad was just shouting at me to do the housework.no wait monday will be a better day.at least i hope so.later gotta go for tuition.still stinky frm nc n badminton.oh well.today's not tt bad la.oh ya my new hairut is doesn't cover my mole so niw my big mole is so visible.ok maybe no one actually cares about my mole:)oh ya crescent ncc is the best forever and ever!

please don't let me be disappointed again.

can't wait.gonna get my haircut on friday.so's cin.now like ppl are all cutting their hair lidat.n some ppl although had nice hair before still look nice in new hair.ok that doesnt really concern anyone does it?today gave fiona herbirthday present.yesterday was her birthday so happy belated birthday fiona.yea.she shared her merci chocs with us during recess.n it was such a lovely time.its nice sitting at e stone table.good view.n fresh air.so fresh that when we got to class it sorta had this stinky smell.ya back to fiona's present.before we could even play the shark spoilt.its tt shark tt u e tooth and lucky lucky it'll bite u.i think its so bloody cute.ya we also got her dis pig with a light stomah when u press it it'll light up.i think thats really cute too.i chose it k n she likes it.today went swimming and got a little darker.i think its nice to be tanned cos i dun like being so light.tomorrow got mass run!!!so good cos we've been eating alot.i mean alot.after e thai express incident(read from cin's blog) i went home n ate fries n magnum almond.heavenly man.oh ya cin forgot to say we went to the toilet so much.practically once every15minutes.thursday's a good day.today was a good day too.so was yesterday.everyday's gonna be a good day.oh ya i still haven't figured out how to throw a javalin.liting say fry how come so smart go n send a javalin in.(ya im supp 2 b the javelin.cin says its blunt though.i may be long but my head's not tt flat k).was talking about how our year e ppl like very clique-ish n not really friendly so its not really very nice.look at e sec 3s la.esp that 2s2'03 gang thing.adrea says noelle misses them.all of them miss each other.they all so united la.n everybodys friends with each other.not like us.so unfriendly.it'll b nice to be sec 3.haha.im old liao la.

at adrea's.so long cant use comp.so many things hapened.ok maybe not that many.in e midst of common test now.stinks man.dun like studying.den next day will be panicking n scaring liting.oh well.i got a pair of intelligent glasses to make me feel hardworking and for good luck for my tests.i love black rectangle glasses.they make people look nice don't they?oh well.and the tradition still follows.sleeping everynight with the book of the subject im getting tested the next day.n i cant wait to cut my hair after the common test(its no good to cut just before the test if not the knowledge u get will all be cut away-courtesy of my mum.she claims its true)its getting really messy.we're gonna eat on tuesday!!liting and adrea wants thai express n bess wants e taka downstairs e noodles n pasatamania so we've decided to go town cos evertthing's there.cant wait.n on sat i'll go with cin n a few of e nc ppl for canoeing.i cant canoe.i havent got a 1star certificate.luckily i can swim.hopefully i get tanned.it isnt really pleasant looking like a white chicken.i just love going to school now.not cos of common test(duh).its just.oh i cant explain it.

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

valentine's day was yesterday.it was probably the most memorable one i had.spent the whole afternoon tryong to sell roses and skipped luch.stupid rose lady.like how evil can she get.how does she expect me n cin to survive two straight days?!not as if we get that much commision anyway.we slog our guts out while she wraps those pathetic flowers.e roses were pretty but the packaging cant really pass.so i'll really like to thank the ppl who bought them.esp my tuition tcher.he's really eo buy it cos he pitied us den he gave e rose back to us so we can sell and earn more money.n also thanks to all the people who gave me those lovely valentine's presents.i couldnt aford to buy anything tho.but gave adrea bess cin laureen liting n dani some of my love.it was damn lame but i stayed up at 12smth to make it.yeap.oh ya n thanks adrea for e rose n bess for e small bouquet.first time i receive roses n i love it(esp bess's one.its really nice).

You make the world beautiful:)wanted to put tt moulin rouge song here but cin already has e part i want in her blog.den our blogs always have the same thing.ppl say i always copy her.not really ok.sometimes we both copy someone else.

finally know wad my mum means when she said e comp was going to spoil soon.e screen is near white and i can barely c anything but she has kindly allowed me to use it for half n hour.how nice.cin n adrea wanna watch gothika on valentine's day.i think its really a wonderful way to spend valentine's day.watching a scary movie.im ot gonna watch american idol on thursdays anymore.they just waste your time.all they do is go for alot of advertisements and reveal who goes into e final 12.the world is a pretty place cos you make it pretty:)

the chem test was so scary.got so hot n flustered in the freezing air con room but that was two days ago already.tmr got another idiotic test.physics.like my best subject la.hope i manage to pass this time.cin's trying to get some dance moves while im being really helpful here using the comp.how nice of me.yesterday was telling adrea about how she should go track n all e nonsense.oh well.hope she really does den when she gets to join nationals i'll be there screaming like a mad woman for her!!ok.today was really very nice.as in really.the days are getting nicer as they go by.hope it continues.im willing to be deceived.forever.as long as it makes me happy.but sometimes i realise that life isnt just about as beautiful as it is.some things just dun belong to me.i should stop wishing for wadever i'll never get.it might belong to someone else.its no good to snatch other people's things.its nice dreaming anyway.thanks for letting me have the happy thoughts for just a few moments.im sure they'll be enough.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch. I wanna
Hold you so much. At long last love has
Arrived. And I thank God I'm alive. You're
Just too good to be true. Can't take my
Eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare. There's nothing
Else to compare. The sight of you leaves me
Weak. There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel. Please let me know
That it's real. You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

i'm like getting stupider nowadays.my tests all totally screw up.but not that im unhappy.in fact nowadays im much happier.life's suddenly so beautiful.the world is beautiful.the things in e world are beautiful.sigh.really.im looking forward to mass run.getting fat.yes.running is such a good sport right?oh well.tmr got chem test n as usual im gnna be sleeping on my chem bk tonight.wish i could really absorb e knowledge.im being stupid but a last minute person like me got no choice.use every possible method.yes.

Joy Enriquez-How Can I Not Love You

Cannot touch, Cannot hold, Cannot be together
Cannot love, Cannot kiss, Cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot trip, Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, Must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, Must not say
What we no longer long

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

Forget them all. Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again.

Never is an awfully long time.

crosscountry was over yeaterday.muscles aching today.jacinta sleeps funny.oh well.yeap was really happy yesterday.got 7th for e non-competitive running.improved cos last yr i got like 13 i think.n fry cheer got 1st!!!!i forgive the ugly n horrible tasting purple poster paint on half of my face.well almost forgive.peter pan is so cute im gonna marry him.haha.today was such a nice day too.had 4 free periods=2hours20mins free.n somehow i feel contented and everything.such a happy day.

i thought this part was really sad:
Captain Hook: She was leaving you. Your Wendy was leaving you. Why should she stay? What have you to offer? You are incomplete. Let's take a look into the future, shall we? You fly to Wendy's nursery and... what's this? The window's closed.
Peter: I'll open it.
Captain Hook: I'm afraid the windows barred.
Peter: I'll call out her name.
Captain Hook: She can't hear you.
Peter: No.
Captain Hook: She can't see you.
Peter: Wendy.
Captain Hook: She's forgotten all about you.
Peter: Stop it. Please. Stop it.

went for house cheer practice today.it can really get tiring u know.esp for tt one cheer.e one we have to march on e spot.anyway went for chalet on sat n sun.it was pretty boring because its a family chalet n im like not really a family person.oh well but it was really nice seeing the sky and the stars and like at night its just one balck patch when u stare out of e window until after a while maybe u can see just a little outline of the forest opposite.and e next morning when u wake up u can actually hear e waves(and my brother and cousins chasing each other but thats another story).went down to e beach to read my book and my sis couldnt ctand e sun so she went back up.i did get quite warm after a while but cannot beat cin.walked along e beach.its nice when the beach has no one other den yourself(it's prety small n a little dirty but ya its better den nth).it feels so simple there.like theres nth to worry about.but ya we have to get on with life someday.

was also thinking about my parents.i often complain about them controlling me so much and how i wish i could get more freedom and all tt crap.but sometimes.those moments when u start thinking, i wish they'll comtrol me more.my cousin was telling me how when u reach 21 u'll get all e freedom in e world.but i was thinking they really control me cos they love me and all n like once we grow up to e teenage years we just keep growing so quickly and we arent really those kids they knew anymore.i know it'll hurt to lose those children who have been so close to you and doing all e stupid stuff and all and needing so much of your attention.suddenly they just distant away.its quite sad if u think abt it.and its nto as if your parents will always be there for you, sometimes i wish they will.it sacres me when i think about how im gonna live without my dad n mum.no one to wake me up in e morning.no one to tell me to stop using e comp.no one to cut fruits for me.no one to worry about me.its gonna be so different.but meanwhile i still get angry n curse under my breath when they spoil my plans or scold me for no reason.hopefully i'll get past tt stage soon.