today had e intro n it was alright althogh e second lt was like damn stone but i love our class n our senior class!like reall really they are the bestest!they gave so much support we all felt so loved!ok i promise not to talk so loud in e microphone nxt time.today i curbed e urge to eat macs!ate chicken porridge instead so proud of myself!oh well.

ok blogger was screwed for quite a long time just now anyw tmr is e speech!1 min seems a pretty long time in front of e fac.oh wells.everything shall be fine a smile is a curve that sets everything straight right dear?argh still got alot of hw.i feel quite rubbish now.cin thanks for your skirt its much more comfy.damn im going on a diet.a no macs so often diet.i eat it at least every other day!crazy me.be happy k u:)

played pushball!right side won man!haha its quite a lame game but oh well when you're in it den u feel it la.fell once but i got back up v quickly!haha not bad ah.anyw met e second intakers.they're pretty fine hope they'll talk more then everything will be ok!i thought of a new idea.i'll take a nap a while first!den get up den bathe den do tutorials cos last night i tried taking a nap after bath den do tutorials den in e end nv woke up.oh well.haha

i'm very stinky now i cant stand myself its really terrible.training was fun today.i din karen is like so damn smart 4As 3 s paper distinctions.oh my goodness.anyw i hope i'll get recharged for meeting e new intake i guess nowadays so worn out im damn lousy la.life goes on.hopefully i'll be able to catch up on e tutorials soon.im stinky.

slept for so much yesterday n today.got up n went to adrea's house to get a set of her sis's hc uniform.it looks so dull!i mean compared to crescent's yellow and blue(looks green to me) nothing else can be brighter so oh well.had icecream at e icecream palour!anyw me n adrea know e stuff n ppl all goes in a circle la.i guess hc n e world is damn small la hor.

anyw tmr i think the new intake is coming in.we must make them feel welcome!glad we had tt class bbq on friday it somehow it allowed everything to be concluded properly.most people turned up:)thanks for those who came.good luck and may everything be good in your new jcs!

and notice mr orange?cute right!

i am happy.today's class party was alright and oh well got pushed into pool(or rather pulled in by freddie in e pool).it was pretty cold la.but ate alot n played pass e parcel!been v long since i played it.n we gave out mock awards!quite funny.alot of thins funny.i tired liao.nightie:)

i guess like mrs tan said we have to move on.mayb it'll be less upsetting if u realise that nothing lasts forever.things come and go.part and parcel of life.only problem is tt i adapt to tt v slowly.oh well.anyw went back for crez awards im so proud of ncc they were so pro n got so much support!den realised how hc culture is really so diff.n how crescent changed its so damn poser but quite cool in some ways la but damn damn poser la.realised sometimes i still have little regrets.only siewchi will understand i guess.it really sucks to think of them.

all we can do is wait.i lov jiadi she's gonna be my touch rug captain.yes.i love raymond he's e most responsible chem rep along with dearest ingrid.samuel tan altho i haven't gotten a chance to know u yet, tts precisely e reason y u'll be staying on.chenwee i imagine a day without seeing your teethless smile.did i miss out anyone who did general appeal in my class?sorry i din mean to if i did.im happy tt all e sports appeal got in.so please let e rest get through it too.

i can't believe it.15 people posted out.ok many are coming back i guess.but it still felt terrible.esp saying bye to teeyan cos u know he's really gonna b gone(he's not appealing).our class will definitely not be the same again.tomorrow is going to be very quiet and empty.sibful deed i committed today:i ate almost a whole tub of haagen daz icecream cookies and cream flavour.thanks for it brither!but oh well its bad!so fattening.let's see how tmr turns out.

ok someone out there really hates me or sth right.but i'd really prefer if u cld just let me know who u are n wad u hate abt me.never mind i know there are people who are really nice too:)tomorrow e results are gonna b out tmr its very fast it didnt really seem as if 3 months have passed i feel quite sad cos our class is gonna change.i hope the friday class outing will turn out to be fine n properly organised.feeling kinda crappy now.binomial gets on your nerves very easily u know.but life's orange:)

can't get my thoughts organised for gp.i really hate non-fiction stuff.dad threw his temper again.oh how i hate it when it happens.even tho its not at me the whole household gets affected.went for a run just now havent ran in ages guess i just wanted to release something.adrea last time said something about running till u get this pleasurable pain.ok havent really gotten e pleasurable part but yup i wanted some pain.sch reopens tmr.dunno if im looking forward to it.people gonna leave:(

ok i found e completed version of e second poem i posted yesterday.e one cin say i shoot at her one.haha

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
It's not because he pleases me
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling for someone new
It's not because I love him
It's because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.
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You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

found them on my old old blog tt is spoilt n cant be seen any longer.oh well.

thanks cin mayleng n adrea for helping to defend me from the evil person on e tagboard.havent exactly seen it yet but thanks all of u anyw k?went for huangcheng guess mayb i shouldnt have gone with too much expectations cos it'll mean u'll get disappointed more easily.but it was ok i guess.e props were damn pretty n nice n pro la!n e acting was also v good i thought e mother frm e first story was perfect.n e lovesick guy frm e second was so cute la.hahah ok when i think back it was better den when i actually watched it.today went for macs breakfast with adrea n i had hotcakes!so long havent had it liao.n ya we caught up by talking for like 3 hours!had been feeling bad abt not talking much to her but today made up for it quite abit!mayb we should have breakfast every week right?have been procrastinating abt my homework n yes still procrastinating.just now was gonna start on chi(which was to b handed up during e hols) but decided on a half an hr nap which extended to 3 hours.why am i not surprised?same strategy use comp now so at night can do hw but i aint expecting it to work anyw.our banner was done yesterday!our so cool mr orange banner!so proud of it man.n i painted out names freehand!so nice some more la hahahha.i'm a lucky and happy girl:)

thank you for e treat k cheeky.havent eaten fish n co in ages.haha.n my sunburnt shoulders hurt.so terrible.n i realised tt i suck at writing personal statements.n i guess e nomination is a very serious think.so scary.tmr painting banner!but i need to ask mr president for permission to leave for a while to go shopping with bess to buy her court shoes.i really like e final fantasy songs its so sweet n sad la.oh n i got like a specs line at e side of my face!cos got burnt at e exposed area its damn cool cos its like i got a line across haha.

ok stupid personal statement.im burnt today!like lobster!but hwa chong touch rug is damn pro la!we played the under-17 and we din even allow anyone to score a try against us!(ok minus me i din play).n the seniors played under-20 and won too!!so proud of everyone!anyw went to do video editing at jierong;s house n i was v sleepy im v sorry i think i din pay much attention.but the video is done!n i think e posters too so left e banner.im sleepy.HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYANG!haha.

quite tired.my sewing isnt e best in e world so im sorry if e cloth looks weird k.tmr is so scary.luckiyl im not in first team.filming is hard.cin is not understanding.im tired.

guess i've been neglecting many people alot so far.feels lousy now and then.but guess complaining wun help if i dun do anything.ok so here's some short messages for them.
adrea:i know i really suck.im in e same sch yet i dun make use of how easy i can find you to actually keep our realtionship very close.sorry.i have this sneaky suspicion tt its gonna get harder when im running for council but i guess i should start trying harder shouldn't i?i know u did but i guess its my fault.i hope your leg will ge better soon den we'l play touch rug together tho i'll prob b still v pok at catching balls n stuff.no ball sense still.o well
bess:ok fine la cin is yours must always b so possessive la.i want to talk to u la.remember we used to be so pro gossip mates over e phone.but guess now u occupied with other stuff ahem.haha so i wish you all the best in everything k must tell me any new developments!
cin:i guess i talk to u e most la but yup absence makes the heart fonder.siewchi n gloria n me n u must go out k.we'll have some affiliated thing.hope u had fun in at hockey thing.
laureen:heard u put hc as your first choice.mayb u'll get in!then u'll be in same fac as adrea n i'll see u more!haha.i still dun realy understnd your relationship stuff(im too simple minded la) but if ever e chance u must tell me all e complicated stuff n enlighten me k?
liting:hey ell me wad happens in ac k.i'll go your house n learn to cycle again i dun believe i really cannot make it.n i still drink alot of instant soup do u too/got alot of water retention still?haha ok lame lame.
sorry nerd club haven't been doing a good job.miss everyone.wish can go back to last yr.

came back frm fac night.about 10 odd ppl frm class went.tose of u all who cheated me n din go in e end im v sad.hmmph.but im so proud of siewchi!she wont e limbo contest for our class!n thanks jx for eating so much crap in e games.haha.quite tired now tmr'later got training den got to start filming e video.hope everything will be ok.n wun get too tired.haha

i so cannot dance e mass dance.haha oh well.tmr is fac night so fast huh.i really dun understand how ppl are gonna go when they dun find out e address frm me n how to get there.i think alot of ppl wun turn up la.v sad.those evil ppl.took campaign photos.im so not photogenic.man.n e oranges tasted good!n we made jierong blot his face!today is lame.e sun was getting to us.gloria went with me to get teeyans bday present(sorry its belated).n we were gushing at those sweet cards at taka.gonna shop with her on mon after e video thing:)

i really think blogger is getting screwed e past two days i've typed my post n it refused to be published now im gonna save as draft first.hmm.cin left for malaysia for her hockey stuff today.miss cin.n tday we submitted e council nomination forms!haha.was just peeling e dried blisters i got frm my pretty new soccer boots.still have to get used to them in touch training.i got an orange band for orange!haha.today is a happy day but im so muddled i lost all my handouts n sm1 returned it all to e respectve reps.man.no thinking too much dear:)

yesterday make me type liao den cant publish.blogger is getting retarded.tagboard too half e time i c i its spoilt.o well.anyw yesterday me n gloria were so happy n excited in sch started after phy prac cos its so v fun!no prac so tutorials for e whole 3 periods=2hours.n as usual mr gow is so cool cos he doesnt expect our class to do tut at home (which is true la) so he gicves us time to do n we can talk rubbish!haha.cin came yesterday and i miss her so.she's leaving for malaysia tomorrow for some hockey stuff.today's touch training is fun!tho its still uncomfortable to run in my new pretty soccer boots:)blisters galore!hols starting already!those who want to help me prepare for campaign can sign up with me!hahaha.nerd club forever!ok no link.

hey hey today we came up with quite alot ideas for our campaign!hope orange works out:)really lagging behind hw i feel v terrible copying.i dun understand lidat la.but i hope will catch up during hols la.thank you for staying.those who could n did.im very happy:)

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

hah decided to come early so no one online den wun stay so long den at night mayb can do my hw.haha like it will actually work la.anyway today is 63 day!sorry didn do anything.hmm im trying not to think!feel gilty abt some stuff.nvm anyw cin ah i call u den not at home your sis sounded quite pissed cos i think mayb she was slping or sth.haha anyw today i ate at jack's place!after so long finally ate it i miss steak la!but feel quite guilty made mum spend quite alot.oh well.n i drank black coffee there.like really black with no suger at all so bitter.dunno y i did tt just wanted some bitterness i guess.

just came home frm talenttime and e last talentime winner was really damn gd.evoke so much of my emotions when she sing jay chou's hei se you mo la.haha.n LOVE was so cool la their rap was so real n singer so good!!!!glad they won man.anyway gloria is gonna run for council too!yay!!now our team has 4 ppl already hope everything will turn out fine ya?ok tmr shall try to do some hw or organise myself im feeling quite pleased with stuff now cos now i dun feel stressed!haha hope e feeling will stay la.happy day to everyone!

ok im officially lost.i don't know why.i somehow feel that things have been moving so quickly i hardly realised properly how far it has come.those blank moments still haunt me for a few hours everyday.trying to fill them up or find a way outta e maze.never mind.i shall continue to strive!but i still don't feel ready for touch rug.ok mayb playing leisurely its ok but i guess im not used to e competitive nature of sports.i dunno if im e type to crack under pressure.if i am then its bad cos theres so much of it now.please let me find a way through it all.:(

went to visit cin today felt a little extra in the midst of all her hockey team was rather tired but nvm i'll wait for cin!but she took hell long to choose her hockey stick tho(: but its such a pretty green colour so not bad la.sat n ate at macs(yes again) at funan den talk and talk.took a long bus ride home too and cin's shoulder is quite nice to lie on yes i miss you alot why is it so like that?good luck for your chem test tmr k but if u fail nvm i gonna fail my first chem test here at hc too!today is a very stoned day and i think the next few weeks will too.its really v sian n somehow i just cant get back into the organised mood.everything is left half complete everywhere i hardly know what i'm actually doing.tired.that must be it.wish everything would slow down for a while.

ok guess mayb its selfish for me to make e whole class stay.but i wish they will.but people should be given their own freedom to choose.sorry.i miss everyone.4c1.nerd club.05s63.everyone.