Sunday, December 31, 2006 12:21 AM
try to remember the kind of september
when life was slow and oh, so mellow
try to remember the kind of september
when grass was green and grain was yellow
try to remember the kind of september
when you were a tender and callow fellow
try to remember and if you remember
then follow
follow
try to remember when life was so tender
that no one wept except the willow
try to remember the kind of september
when love was an ember about to billow
try to remember and if you remember
then follow
follow
deep in december it's nice to remember
although you know the snow will follow
deep in december it's nice to remember
the fire of september that made us mellow
deep in december our hearts should remember
and follow
follow
follow...
Saturday, December 30, 2006 9:31 PM
i think i forgot who i was. somebody?
3:05 AM
i feel very alone.
Friday, December 29, 2006 11:40 PM
i keep trying to run away from reality and hiding in the world of that taiwanese drama.
i think sometimes that's what tv does to you.
i like to pretend that i'm part of that world and nothing else in this one matters anymore.
11:23 PM
(29th December 4something in the morning)
the internet is down so i gotta type most of what i wanna say in notepad.
i just finished watching silence(shen1 qing2 mi4 ma3).yes at like 3.39am in the morning.gosh sometimes when you watch a certain show you feel like you're part of the world inside and you lose yourself from reality just for those moments.it kinda happened with meteor garden, the whole fantasy at some rich-kid college and finding the prince charming-all so fairytale like.silence is different.i must be a cry baby because my eyes are swollen and i'm tired from weeping.it's not just because i'm crying over the demise of the stunningly beautiful zaizai, his eyes are gorgeously big and his hair falls so perfectly, framing the very narrow chiselled face.when he smiles (or just appears onscreen for that matter) i'm like hooked.
sometimes the show does get draggy, with the very often flashbacks but i still adore it.it made me wonder what i'd do if i knew the expiry date of life.would i slowly distant myself from the people around me to lessen the pain of seperation when death comes, or would it be a better choice to love the people as much as possible, so that the final days are not spent in vain.ideally, when those romance stories always show how they leave someone because they love them too much.i don't really think it lessens the pain.it just leaves behind more regret don't you think?
i'm afraid of death.but i don't think there's much for me to regret if the world ended today.(maybe i should have studied harder for physics so i wouldn't have kept failing but nahh nothing much very big)
somedays i don't believe in love anymore.not the true love will last forever kind of thing.i think the only lasting love comes from family and friends.the romantic kind is only temporary.someone is bound to get bored by the other, someone more interesting will appear and yadayada. but then again forever comes and goes and it's length is determined by different individuals.i used to believe in fairytales and christmas.somedays i just get woken up with a slap on my face reminding me that fairytales are found in books and christmases are found in shopping centres.
other days, i still wake up dreaming of the prince charming waiting for me under the mistletoe.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006 11:30 PM
christmas day was nicely spent with the nerd club:) the night before was spent watching zaizai on dvd.he's so goodlooking in the show i want to marry him.the show is called silence(shen1 qing2 mi4 ma3) and whatever la when he's on screen i can't stop getting excited.gosh!haha.so well i kinda slept at 6am.
and today brush tan told me more about uni apps and scholarships.i realised i know very little about such things.sigh.
Sunday, December 24, 2006 7:39 PM
okay am back from beijing.
i so miss that place!with all the cheap food and shopping.everything is divided by 5!(since S$1=5 Yuan)and even then the prices there are just like what you find in sg!so you see for a 10 course meal for 9 people costs about 150yuan.actually S$150 already quite cheap for such a meal in singapore but nono we are so not satisfied with that in china.so it's divided by 5 so it's actually S$30 for the meal!wa cool shit so everyone pays about $3 for that meal!and we got ourselves a private room okay!that was the most extreme one la but generally the stuff there is super cheap.
so i kinda went crazy shopping.for myself, i bought
4 pairs of shoes
4 bags
5 pairs of earrings
2 necklaces
1 pair of jeans
1 big hairband
1 belt
and actually i suspect got more one just it slipped my mind cos there was so many things.
other than shopping we visited places too.
1. great wall
2. forbidden city
3. summer palace
4. temple of heaven
5. tiananmen
6. ski place at nanshan
7. happy valley(amusement park)
1. i remembered almost dying while climbing the great wall.it's so steep with steps and all that rubbish i don't know how the soldiers patrolled the wall in the past.
2. the forbidden city was very cool so damn big(but one big building they used to film huanzhugege was under restoration when we went there dammit)
3.the summer palace was even better we got a guide at only 10yuan(but we paid her 20 in the end) and we learnt about all the history and stuff when we saw the place i think she was worth it.do you know the summer palace is 3/4 made up of water?and that is because of the lake the emperor dug out as a birthday gift to his mother.it took ten years and the stuff they dug out they used it to make a hill.it's like woah la.
4. the temple of heaven had some echo wall which you could talk to the wall and somebody at a random other part of the wall could hear you.the wall was actually a round one and my friend told me it had to be a perfect circle for it to be so good and echo-y.well done china builders!
5.tiananmen was just damn big so we(the girls) didn't want to walk.and at the same area we went to see mao zedong's body.when we went into the place we had to stand in fours and walk in orderly felt extremely communist.
6.we couldn't ski so we just played other stuff at the ski place.there was this snow city like sit on the round flot thing to slide down a slope.and this toboggan thing i don't think i enjoyed it as much as the rest of my friends cos i drive it much slower.
7.most of the rides at the amusement park was closed but we took this ride which was damn cool and exciting.it's a little like a super big viking.and it's actually a rotating circle viking.so we just turn as we move in the viking way but it went super high you feel like you're flying.i wish the roller coasters were open though.
so basically the trip was really fun and we had really good and cheap food and it was a wonderful getaway.apart from the extreme cold i don't think there was much to complain about.but then again i got used to the cold already so it wasn't such a big problem la.
fatfat was so excited to take a plane ride.
Thursday, December 07, 2006 8:44 PM
prom was over and done with and it was an alright pretty fun experience(even though i don't think the food was worth the money at allll).but now i'm just damn pissed that i'm allergic to double-sided tape i think.and i have random rectangular patches of rashes on wherever i stuck the tape to keep my dress in place.it's so damn itchy and i'm just going to die trying not to scratch it.rahhhhhh.
and i'll be flying off to china soon.haven't packed my luggage and i'm so going to die at the touchrug comp cos i haven't gone for any training since before prelims.hope i can still catch balls.hurhur.
:( i am feeling sad.
Saturday, December 02, 2006 11:41 PM
went tanning and the places i want to get darker don't seem to have any reactions to sitting in the sun for almost an hour flipping back and forth like some barbequed meat.instead i got a almost burnt face and i'm so scared it will peel.please please don't let my face peel.don't let anywhere peel for that mattr.
and when i was half asleep at 8sth in the morning, i felt this horrible itch on my legs.i still have no idea what it was and i changed my bedsheet already and even when i was at jcc i was still itching as i was roasting.i'm so sad i'm so itchy now andi keep twitching cos i'm trying not to scratch myself in case i get ugly scratch marks.booooo
anyone got a digi cam to lend me on 4th dec for my prom night?pleaseeeee
Friday, December 01, 2006 11:49 PM
went kboxing with kailing today.and played ddr i really want to play ddr(without those pro ahbengs and lins looking and making me feel super noob la).
somedays like today i walk home alone and feel lonely and lost.