i have no idea why i'm in the angsty mood now, keep getting angry at anything and everything and it takes next to nothing to irritate me.

i need to be zen!

let's all sing a sad song today.

just now we had a discussion about what super power would we like to have if we could choose one.just now i said i would like to be able to grow money on trees but now i would like to change it to be able to erase sad memories if we had any.

I was in a random mood and then decided to randomly watch videos from love actually on youtube.

GOSH I WISH CHRISTMAS WOULD COME TOMORROW!

i get the whole warm and fuzzy feeling everytime i watch the show, wanting to be kissed under the mistletoe and simple joys of love and christmas.

Hopefully i'll get to spend that dreamy(make it white too) christmas with somebody special soon:)

haha day-dreaming 4months before christmas, how wonderful haha

i can't say how much i enjoyed ftb, how many times it was better than what i thought it would be cos i was just worried over nothing.(thanks to everyone who was reassuring me tt it would be alright!)

there were quite a number of international students but they were very nice!i had about 5 in my group, coming from vietnam, malaysia, philippines and china. we turned out great tog, and we won the best flag!(omg i can't believe it it was my design and maybe a little cute/cool but prob not the best in the entire run of the camp!) we also had the most points to buy powercards on for the final challenge(we didnt win that but nevermind)!

and for some silly reason, my heart is beating a little irregularly now so i don't think i can finish this post properly.and i haven't gotten the photos of my group yet(Cyborgs Group 117 - Whatever!). i didn't like out section name(cyborgs) at first but later just got used to it. and yeah i'll do a proper one when my heart's settled and the photos arrive!

Today, i went for an acadamic briefing at smu. And it was one of the loneliets days in my life. Having not gone for any of the school camps yet, i had zero friends and the people who sit beside me are just, you know, not very conversationable, so i didnt have anyone to talk to. the entire time when the speaker said something funny, i could only chuckle to myself instead of laughing and making some stupid comments like i usually would. and the people around me all seem to be at ease with thir new-found cliques(other than the rather different people who by luck, end up sitting beside me).

This makes me miss hwachong alotalot. I think i was so used to the milder people there, and speaking out was easier(somehow). In smu, alot of the girls dress up really nicely and have long curly hair and speak very sweetly, and they always seem to appear in a pack together, i don't really know how to go about talking to anyone anymore.

:(

I was looking for my diary(the one i write down all the stuff and whatnots i have on everyday) and i couldn't find it for 15 minutes and i was really panicky.then i realised how i dependent i am on it.i didn't use to write stuff down in an organised manner, until i got inspiration from hon, cos she talked about having this notebook with her all the time to jot down stuff. i thought it was pretty cool, and kinda stuck with it till today haha

and i'm still in the process of packing my room.i already got a mirror and after i'm done, i'll be getting a chest of drawers, a table mirror, and table lamp, opefully new sheets and a quilt as well.

so for yestedray and today, it' decided that it'll be the acer travelmate.who knows what will happen tomorrow!

School's about to start in a couple of weeks. With

a camp to go for next week,
convocation,
laptop/tablet-buying,
collection of my new specs(omg i must have been insane when i bought it),
room revamp,
council gathering and
still going to work on a couple of days

I really don't feel like i'm going to be sufficently rested before the term starts. Everything seems so scary.

and this is really random but i was thinking last night(when i couldn't fall asleep) about how my blog is the best way for me to remember things. I can forget what i ate yesterday for dinner(but i know yesterday i met up with the touchrug people and karen at botak jones). I guess some people find people's blog mundane but really, sometimes to remember the times when i was smaller, sillier and maybe happier,, i go back to my archives to read my previous posts. I have a really bad memeory, esp a short-term one. i REALLY can forget something in 5 secs. i'm hoping probably next yr or whenever i look back and read this, i'll be laughing at my 18-going-on-19-year-old self because by then i'd have been some guru/smart-alec/walking thumb-drive.

as i was just talking rubbish in the above paragraph, i was actually going to go on about my room revamp but i got distracted. I'm going to shift the furniture here and there, dumping my 5431775 zaizai posters and newspaper cut-outs and whatnots. I'll also be getting a new chest of drawers, a full length mirror adn hopefully new bedsheets.

i think university life will be very much different from jc's and i want to start it with a new room so that well, i'll be more motivated and er clean.haha

when jc ended, we(the nerd club) found each other back again properly. we went for holidays(beijing and redang), celebrated birthdays(cin's, liting's, bess's, adrea's) and had little shopping trips and random hanging-out sessions. i do enjoy everyone's company and i hope we'll still be each other's bridesmaids in time to come.







it'll probably be like the past 2 years once we enter uni. Different schools(but meeting on everyone's brithday for a celebration) and very different schedules. Let's go on a holiday together again someday!

okay fine, you probably realised i just learnt how to use the blogger upload photos thing. I'm very lag i know, stop sniggering tskk